In a Runner's Own Words
Many things are thrown our way when we experience a deep soul connection. Some are not meant to be understood, they are meant to be experienced. Acknowledging that, there is an aspect of the Twin Flame experience I feel called to study. I’m referring to the concept of a “runner”. Having no way to figure out what a ‘runner’ experiences was the single most difficult part of my own experience. I could not figure out how someone could have the same experiences and depth of feeling that I had and not see it as joyful. I believe we can be educated about this and by doing so, we can better support both partners.
“Non running” partners will be helped by understanding what a ‘runner’ experiences and by receiving validation that the issues of a ‘runner’ have nothing personally to do with their partner. On the flip side, by understanding what a ‘runner’ experiences, we can help them to maneuver through questions and fears about the connection.
I my research I have seldom come across material that explains what a ‘runner’ experiences. In the few cases I found, the information was written by a third party which was helpful but didn’t satisfy my desire to understand what a ‘runner’ experiences.
I’ve met several people who have experienced a high level soul connection and two or three who I believe have met their incarnated Twin Flame. It’s been recently that I’ve had the privilege of meeting people willing to share what it feels like to be a ‘runner’. One of them is particularly enlightening as you will read. He describes the realization that perhaps it was not his soul connection but he who ran. Deep thanks to both of you for giving me permission to share aspects of your story. I am copying directly without edits. These kind people are sharing with you because they wish to help others and I believe that is exactly what will happen. I can feel the energy in their words and I know you will too. This is transformative information and I am grateful beyond my ability to express. The way in which each share the raw intensity of what they have experienced is breathtaking.
From “L” a female in the U.S.:
my fears were.. too much too soon like it came on to strong (him ,the situation) and i just couldn't handle it i didn't feel i was in a place of readiness and also i didn't think i was good enough for him not to mention he seems to be the ideal mate if i had to create him myself and it just could not be happening to me kinda felt like a dream not real it was happening to smoothly and too fast there was no fight or struggle ..that it! it was too easy my mind could not accept it
From “S” a male in Australia:
SHE IS THE RUNNER....or so I thought. I've had a lot of time to think about things now and the truth is every division was created by me. If there were no legitimate issues between us I would create one and you know what the most interesting thing is? - almost every time I caused an issue it was preceded by a positive moment or event that brought us closer together...go figure!
Next it would be "I'm sorry, I don't normally act that way" ha,ha,ha how many times I've offered that lame excuse to her.
What does it feel like? It feels like terror!
I takes away ALL CONTROL!
I feel helpless like a leaf in a caught in a tornado.
I resist because I cannot control it.
I'm a very, very guarded person and
all of the barriers I have created to protect myself my whole life are now threatened.
Whatever this connection is it will not allow these barriers. It takes them away and that terrifies me.
Who am I without them?
What will I be without them?
What if my heart learns to feel again?
Don't be angry at a runner.
They never meant to hurt anyone.
They just never expected to have to grow so very, very fast
It’s easy to understand the pain of the ‘non runner’ Twin/soul, right? It’s easy because everyone whether from a soul based relationship or not, knows what it feels like to be abandoned and/or ignored, pushed away and/or left.
As these two people have shared so poignantly, in a soul connection the person who appears to have ‘run’ is suffering as well. Everything they have known themselves or the world to be is in question.
My Twin articulated his fear similarly to how “L” explained. I asked him what was wrong when I sensed he was distancing himself (this was at the beginning of our physical relationship). He said “Love isn’t this easy Moe- it doesn’t just get handed to you. You’re everything I’ve ever imagined… everything about you feels right. I just didn’t know if you existed outside of my mind. Even your house is perfect. It’s the house I’ve pictured in my head all these years but I’d never actually seen. Things like this just don’t happen”.
Oh but they do.
So together we will support each other, the runners and the non runners. We’ll support the non runners who become runners such as me in my current position.
The knowledge we glean from each other will help all of us work through our pain and questions and as we maneuver through, we will heal.
Then it will be on to our ultimate job which is to live as fully as ‘souls’ as we can while in these human bodies. Our job is to bring joy, love, light and spiritual knowledge to the planet.
This is why we experience the pain and questioning that only these high level soul connections can bring. To experience something fully, we MUST experience its opposite. We have much to look forward to.
Thank you “S” and “L” from all of us.
© Moe Wood 2010
8/2/2010 9:27 PM
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